I was literally feeling like I was on top of the world yesterday.
It has gotten to the point where I don’t give a shit about much. I don’t have that spark in my life to do anything. I feel motivated at times but it’s not enough to keep me going on my whole life or for a long while. I need something or someone to build that fire in me. Something or someone worth working for. Fuck…I hate the fact that I can’t do it by myself. I need help. Same shit different day. I need change and dramatic change but I don’t know how. Someone save me cause I can’t seem to save myself.
Lately it’s been a roller coaster. I’ve been up and I’ve been down. It’s been hard to get a hold of myself and grow the fuck up. I’ll tell you right now I’ll be down shit all for God knows how long. Motivation can only do so much for you in the long. I have time to grow and in order for me to succeed I need to make significant changes in my life right now or soon before it’s all too late. Fuck I feel so pathetic not doing shit right now. Freedom is a double edged sword and now freedom is knocking at my door asking me to join the free world and all of its harsh realities. Sooner or later I’ll be facing the crowd but for now I’ll be just another face in the crowd.
